Saturday, February 04, 2006
Celebrated Shu ping's b'day at her hse with joyce her bf ( from my church but i never know him ) and ant ( i was invited to her hse for a birthday dinner ) we went out to watch a movie before that, watched Fun with dick and jane was quite funny !!! Had a cool time at her hse, had dinner and fooled around in the park.
Ok Self-awareness canp. My hope is that whatever we've planned to do during the camp will carried out and wouldn;t go to a waste. It was really really good. One of the first sessions was values. Everyone had to list out 12 things that were of value to them. Then dwindle it down to 2, and then everyone including the teachers had to talk about these two values. ALMOST everyone cried ! i did. Since our class is rather disunited we were made to tackle the problem head on and really change to get away from our cliques and talk to others. So during mealtimes no-one was allowed to sit in their cliques. At night i played truth or dare for the first time in my life ! ( ok i know that sounds sad ) it was fun !!!!! saesha did a dare that i can;t mention here , all i can say this it involves a dog and a pregnancy hotline. But it was sooooo baddd !!!!!1 and soo funny ! i also discovered stuff about people that i NEVER expected or knew ! so it was a good experience for me. Ppl also found out stuff they never expected to come from me !
Now something that i;ve learnt about myself how i think i've now grown and matured more as a person. Last time i used to get filthy upset whenever i thought about myself not having a boyfriend and really longing and wanting one , well perhaps cos people around me had so it was peer pressure. Now , i feel i;m fully contented with being single for now, i don;t stress about it even more. Now that i;ve had 2 relationships i feel i can learn from it, i know what a relationship invloves and that i don;t think at the moment it;s what me or my parents can handle, at least for this yr ( next yr i;m going to allow myself to date ) and i know i shouldn;t have a bf just for the sake of having one, why search for love outside the home when i have love right here at home ? Ok although after the truth or dare session i've had regrets abt not having enough , well action if u know what i mean ,with my exes ( when i was together with them lah ! ) but i dun really mean to go so far as to do anything sexual at all ! ok i suppose not like i haven;t kissed before. But well now there is nothing i can do abt that so i;ll jus accept it.
One day, i;ll eventually have a happy, allowed, meaningful, loving , wonderful , understanding, caring relationship with a someone i can be with for a long time.
posted @ 8:44 AM
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Celebrated Shu ping's b'day at her hse with joyce her bf ( from my church but i never know him ) and ant ( i was invited to her hse for a birthday dinner ) we went out to watch a movie before that, watched Fun with dick and jane was quite funny !!! Had a cool time at her hse, had dinner and fooled around in the park.
Ok Self-awareness canp. My hope is that whatever we've planned to do during the camp will carried out and wouldn;t go to a waste. It was really really good. One of the first sessions was values. Everyone had to list out 12 things that were of value to them. Then dwindle it down to 2, and then everyone including the teachers had to talk about these two values. ALMOST everyone cried ! i did. Since our class is rather disunited we were made to tackle the problem head on and really change to get away from our cliques and talk to others. So during mealtimes no-one was allowed to sit in their cliques. At night i played truth or dare for the first time in my life ! ( ok i know that sounds sad ) it was fun !!!!! saesha did a dare that i can;t mention here , all i can say this it involves a dog and a pregnancy hotline. But it was sooooo baddd !!!!!1 and soo funny ! i also discovered stuff about people that i NEVER expected or knew ! so it was a good experience for me. Ppl also found out stuff they never expected to come from me !
Now something that i;ve learnt about myself how i think i've now grown and matured more as a person. Last time i used to get filthy upset whenever i thought about myself not having a boyfriend and really longing and wanting one , well perhaps cos people around me had so it was peer pressure. Now , i feel i;m fully contented with being single for now, i don;t stress about it even more. Now that i;ve had 2 relationships i feel i can learn from it, i know what a relationship invloves and that i don;t think at the moment it;s what me or my parents can handle, at least for this yr ( next yr i;m going to allow myself to date ) and i know i shouldn;t have a bf just for the sake of having one, why search for love outside the home when i have love right here at home ? Ok although after the truth or dare session i've had regrets abt not having enough , well action if u know what i mean ,with my exes ( when i was together with them lah ! ) but i dun really mean to go so far as to do anything sexual at all ! ok i suppose not like i haven;t kissed before. But well now there is nothing i can do abt that so i;ll jus accept it.
One day, i;ll eventually have a happy, allowed, meaningful, loving , wonderful , understanding, caring relationship with a someone i can be with for a long time.
posted @ 8:44 AM
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